Sunday, July 28, 2013

As of lately. . .

I feel like it has been a while since I have updated things that are going on in our lives as of lately . . 

As of May. . . 

Jake's brother and his family moved to Nicaragua and Jake, his sister Kathryn, and his dad decided to take on his brother's small business, at least for the summer. It's called, The Juice Press. It's a small sandwich/smoothie shop located here in Lindon. Jake quit his job at Macys and started working there full time, sometimes more. There have been days where he has been there from 8 am to 9:30 pm. It is kind of stressful, but it does have it's benefits. 
1. Jake is home in the evenings! (most of the time). Since Jake has been home more, it's been fun trying to figure out things that we like to do together. While we are far from figured out, it's still been fun to see him more. :-)
2. He brings home smoothies and bread to me. 
3. It's much more flexible than Macy's was.

We have decided that sometime in the future Jake will join the Air Force. This has been something that has always been on his mind, but once Jake was done with school for the semester and had a little bit more time on his hands, he seriously looked into this decision and the different routs that he can take. It was a huge decision for me, because being in the Air Force is a completely different life style than the life style that I am currently living. We would be far away from family, not get to choose where we got stationed, and at the time I was pregnant and wondered how I could be far away from here raising a baby on my own. We went to the temple and prayed about this decision, and we both felt like it was the right thing to do. We are still trying to figure out the best route - but I think we are pretty set on Jake applying for scholarships until he finishes up with optometry school, and then joining the air force as an optometrist. Things may change because this is years ahead of us, but it is something that has been on our minds at least. 

As of June. . .

We finally joined the world of smart phones! For the first week or so we spent all of our time on our smart phones because they were so fun! We joined the provider, Ting. You can find them online. They are kind of like a pay as you go phone, and there are no contracts involved. They have certain tiers, and if you fall within that certain tier of text, data, or minutes, you pay that much money. We have only paid one bill so far, but it only ended up costing us about $40 for the month. If your contract is ending soon, I would highly recommend checking them out. Here's a link to their website.

We have been taking a lot of Idaho trips this summer. I went up with my sister's and mom in early June for my cousins bridal shower. It was the first time that Jake and I had been away from each other for over a day since we got married. (Spoiled I know!) I loved it and hated it all at the same time. I think it was good for us to be apart for a little while so I could remember what it's like to miss him. 

We also went up to Idaho Fall's later in June for Jake's cousins wedding. It's only the 2nd sealing that I have attended, but I loved attending and being reminded of the covenants that I made with Jake when we were sealed in the temple. 

As of July. . . 

I am no longer a receptionist! They have been needing more help and so they decided to hire someone else for that position and move me on to bigger and better things. I am learning more and more about the title industry and have become an Escrow Assistant. Sometimes I feel like I am looked down upon because I decided to quit school and start working full time, but in a way I find this as such a great learning opportunity. Maybe one day I will finish up school, but as for now I am happy learning in the business that I am in. 

I am officially legal. My 21st birthday was a lot of fun. Jake and I both took off work and went shopping, fed the ducks at a local pond, and just enjoyed our time together. My mom threw together a little party with tin foil dinners and fireworks. **Just as a caution for next time any one shoots off aerial fire works - make sure they are on a steady surface, or they might just tip over and start shooting at you.**

My mom's side had a family reunion up in Idaho about a week ago. It was a lot of fun to see family that I have not seen in a long time, and just enjoy each other's company. We had a lot of fun activities planned. We went to a fun "park" with water slides and a zip line and also climbed rocks and took hikes around a lake. My favorite part of the reunion was probably when we all sat down and had a program talking about my grandma and grandpa and the lives they have lived. It will be their 60th wedding anniversary come December and I am so grateful for them and the examples they are to me! 

As of forever. . . 

Jake is still the cutest person in the world. And I will always love him!

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Little Angels

Story #1:
A girl is 30 weeks pregnant. She has started getting many things prepared for the baby's arrival and has loved bonding with the baby and feeling the baby move. Some complications led to a doctors appointment. The doctor sadly told her news that she lost her baby. She has to deliver her sweet stillborn baby, wondering why this has happened to her. 

Story #2:
A mother delivers her sweet healthy little girl. The little girl has a 4-year old brother who is very excited to welcome her into the family. The mother was very lucky to have this little girl, and could no longer have any more children because of complications. She did the little girls room up so nice and was very excited to bring the little girl home. 
A month and a half later - mother goes to check on her little girl in the morning. The little girl is not breathing, and has no pulse. The mother and the paramedics tried to revive her, but it was too late. The doctors say that it was Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Now the mother, father, and five year old boy have to burry their little girl, not knowing why this has happened to them. 


Story #3:
Little girl is about 18 months old. Mother and father notice something strange about her. She is starting to run into the walls and puts everything right up to her face to look at it. She is also starting to lose weight. They took her into the doctor's office and did not receive the best of news. This little girl has a tumor in her brain. After a few rounds of chemotherapy the doctors sat with the mother and father and said, "I am afraid there is nothing more that we can do. The cancer has now spread throughout her whole body". 
Devastated at the news, mother and father wondered why something like this could happen to their sweet 2 year old girl.  They were not sure how much time they had left with her, but they decided that they were going to make the most of what they had left. 

Story #4:
10 year old boy lying on a hospital bed. Tears rolling down his face as his parents walk into his room. The boy has been fighting cancer for the past few years, but the cancer keeps on getting stronger and coming back. He tells his parents that he is done fighting and that he is not scared of death. He wants to make the most of the time he has left. His parents were scared, but they knew that they needed to support their son in this decision. They knew that he knew his limits and was done fighting. 

Story #5:
Father is holding his wife as she just gave birth to his beautiful little girl. There were complications during the delivery, and his wife did not make it. The father knew that there were risks that this might happen, but he did not think that it would actually happen. He is now on his own, with five kids, including a newborn - still going to graduate school wishing he still had his wife by his side.


All of these stories are true stories. I have heard them all within the past couple months. I don't know if I am paying special attention to these stories since I had my miscarriage, or if I really have been hearing more of them. It's hard to have hope when I hear all of these stories of loss. It's often hard to see the Lords plan in these situations. Why would the Lord take away these precious children when they have not lived for very long?

I hear of situations like these and hope that these people have the knowledge that I have. These sweet little children won't be apart from their parents for very long. This life here on earth is only but a blink of eye compared to eternity - and we will see them again! Though, it's okay to mourn, and it's okay to feel sad. We will be apart from these little children during our earthly experience, and we will miss them. We wanted them to live a full life here on earth and experience the things that we are experiencing. We wanted so much for them that they did not have a chance to have. 

These children are little angels watching over us. God had a special purpose for them and that's why he called them back to him so quickly. The eternal perspective is all about God's purpose for us. Not what we thought we were set out to do, but what He has set out for us to do. When we follow his plan, everything will work out the way that it's supposed to. 

I feel so grateful to have this knowledge. I feel so grateful that I am sealed to my husband and my future children for time and all eternity. No matter what happens, we will be with each other forever.